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lighterthanairHaven't written in a while. Probably because there's not too much going on in my life that's worth talking about, to be honest. Same old, same old. Work, home, sleep, rinse and repeat.
But I suppose it could be worse, and it might be improving soon, if I can convince my workplace of two things: 1) that they should give me my regular hours back and give me the schedule I should be eligible for, and 2) that calling in to work when the weather's so bad that police are advising people to stay off the roads unless it's an emergeny isn't something that should be held against me.
Wish me luck with those things...
It's 2013 now, and I've got me some high hopes for this year. I'm starting it off better than last year, at any rate. Last year, I was increasingly stressed out and had been so for a long time, eventually culminating in delusional states of dead people watching me. I did group therapy for anxiety last year, made some friends, and gained some confidence. Confidence which is still sticking with me, as evidenced by the fact that only a couple of weeks ago I went to a party held by a friend of a friend. Complete strangers, all but one of them. And I actually had an okay time, too. Not something I'll do often, but I think I handled myself well.
So if I can make it to the end of this month without seeing dead people again, I can say with certainty that I'm doing better than last year.
I have some goals for the year. I'd like to read 100 books again, something I think I can manage with a little perseverence. I want to lose at least 50 pounds, and my father's gift of 6 months of Weight Watchers will definitely help with that. I want to overcome this stupid tumour or whatever it is that's causing so many of my health problems. These things I know I can do, if I put my mind to it (and so long as Dr. Satya and I really get to the bottom of the health stuff). But I'm not going to do grandiose lists like I used to, because hat inevitably results in me reaching the end of the year and going, "Dammit, I didn't get to study as much German as I wanted, I didn't finish hand-sewing a quilt, and I still haven't made that snow-dragon!" These things aren't vital. The weight, the health, and the books? They're vital?
I also want to make more stuff to sell on the Etsy store again, but that's not a big priority at the moment. I've got too many other things on my plate and I don't want to burden myself with too much self-imposed pressure and end up breaking down again. Part of being healthy is also being emotionally and psychologically healthy, and that's still a work in progress. I don't want to undo a year's worth of hard work by overreaching myself.
6 hour shift at work today, and my hope is that it won't be too busy because everyone's taking the day off and/or nursing hangovers.
And now, pancakes and scrambles eggs for breakfast, with a mug of tea. It's not so terribly cold out there as it was yesterday, but that doesn't mean a nice hot breakfast will go amiss.
But I suppose it could be worse, and it might be improving soon, if I can convince my workplace of two things: 1) that they should give me my regular hours back and give me the schedule I should be eligible for, and 2) that calling in to work when the weather's so bad that police are advising people to stay off the roads unless it's an emergeny isn't something that should be held against me.
Wish me luck with those things...
It's 2013 now, and I've got me some high hopes for this year. I'm starting it off better than last year, at any rate. Last year, I was increasingly stressed out and had been so for a long time, eventually culminating in delusional states of dead people watching me. I did group therapy for anxiety last year, made some friends, and gained some confidence. Confidence which is still sticking with me, as evidenced by the fact that only a couple of weeks ago I went to a party held by a friend of a friend. Complete strangers, all but one of them. And I actually had an okay time, too. Not something I'll do often, but I think I handled myself well.
So if I can make it to the end of this month without seeing dead people again, I can say with certainty that I'm doing better than last year.
I have some goals for the year. I'd like to read 100 books again, something I think I can manage with a little perseverence. I want to lose at least 50 pounds, and my father's gift of 6 months of Weight Watchers will definitely help with that. I want to overcome this stupid tumour or whatever it is that's causing so many of my health problems. These things I know I can do, if I put my mind to it (and so long as Dr. Satya and I really get to the bottom of the health stuff). But I'm not going to do grandiose lists like I used to, because hat inevitably results in me reaching the end of the year and going, "Dammit, I didn't get to study as much German as I wanted, I didn't finish hand-sewing a quilt, and I still haven't made that snow-dragon!" These things aren't vital. The weight, the health, and the books? They're vital?
I also want to make more stuff to sell on the Etsy store again, but that's not a big priority at the moment. I've got too many other things on my plate and I don't want to burden myself with too much self-imposed pressure and end up breaking down again. Part of being healthy is also being emotionally and psychologically healthy, and that's still a work in progress. I don't want to undo a year's worth of hard work by overreaching myself.
6 hour shift at work today, and my hope is that it won't be too busy because everyone's taking the day off and/or nursing hangovers.
And now, pancakes and scrambles eggs for breakfast, with a mug of tea. It's not so terribly cold out there as it was yesterday, but that doesn't mean a nice hot breakfast will go amiss.