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Preparations
Oct. 2nd, 2011 07:15 pmThe funeral is tomorrow. I want to say that I'm not looking forward to it, but in an odd way I am. I don't look forward to the emotional backlash I'm going to suffer, nor the awkwardness of sitting in a strange place surrounded by strange people, but once it's over, it's over, and that will bring something of a relief.
For me, at least. My friend, well... I suspect that will take much longer.
I'm going to have to miss work tomorrow to go to the funeral. My supervisor didn't seem to have too much of a problem with that, though I don't like having to miss what I know will be vital information to the job. I'm not going to take the full day off, though, as emotionally difficult as that may be. I'll go there after the funeral and do what I can. I can't afford to lose this job, and people there seem to be counting on me to advance and do well there, and I don't want to disappoint them. There isn't anything I could do after the funeral anyway, but sit at home by myself, so keeping busy will be the best thing for me, I think.
I've spent the day doing a lot of little things that needed doing, in order to keep busy. I visited the doctor to get refills on my medications. I've written some blog posts for the upcoming week. I'm doing laundry right now. I have dishes to wash and a shower to take and supper to eat, and I don't feel like doing any of those things, but they have to be done. I might wait until tomorrow to shower, though. I don't doubt I'll end up waking early again, thanks to my lungs, and I'll have to call my workplace to tell them the time of the funeral so they'll know when to expect me, so I can quickly shower then, if need be.
I haven't done any crafts for a while. I dug out some pretty purple yarn, though, and am going to cast on for a scarf this evening. The weather's growing cold enough that I'll need one soon. The yarn is thick but it's not wool, so it will be a nice fall-and-spring scarf. I'll make myself a nice new wool one for the very cold weather later.
For me, at least. My friend, well... I suspect that will take much longer.
I'm going to have to miss work tomorrow to go to the funeral. My supervisor didn't seem to have too much of a problem with that, though I don't like having to miss what I know will be vital information to the job. I'm not going to take the full day off, though, as emotionally difficult as that may be. I'll go there after the funeral and do what I can. I can't afford to lose this job, and people there seem to be counting on me to advance and do well there, and I don't want to disappoint them. There isn't anything I could do after the funeral anyway, but sit at home by myself, so keeping busy will be the best thing for me, I think.
I've spent the day doing a lot of little things that needed doing, in order to keep busy. I visited the doctor to get refills on my medications. I've written some blog posts for the upcoming week. I'm doing laundry right now. I have dishes to wash and a shower to take and supper to eat, and I don't feel like doing any of those things, but they have to be done. I might wait until tomorrow to shower, though. I don't doubt I'll end up waking early again, thanks to my lungs, and I'll have to call my workplace to tell them the time of the funeral so they'll know when to expect me, so I can quickly shower then, if need be.
I haven't done any crafts for a while. I dug out some pretty purple yarn, though, and am going to cast on for a scarf this evening. The weather's growing cold enough that I'll need one soon. The yarn is thick but it's not wool, so it will be a nice fall-and-spring scarf. I'll make myself a nice new wool one for the very cold weather later.
