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lighterthanair) wrote2012-10-05 09:24 am
lighterthanair) wrote2012-10-05 09:24 am
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Today WILL be better!
Dammit, I'm going to do everything in my power to make today better than the last two days! Yesterday wasn't any better than Wednesday, and there was more than one moment where I was almost in tears from sheer frustration and being overwhelmed. I managed to take a minute and calm down, but still, that isn't a good thing. I know that all jobs have their hard days, but it's like the past couple of days have been nothing but crap.
At least I got an hour off the phone yesterday toward the end of my shift, to do some location research. Having that break made things so much easier. It gave me an hour to step back, to just read and listen to audio presentations, and just generally relax so that the last half hour on the phones was much easier to handle than the first four.
And as much as it looked like my handle time was going to be shot again, I managed to salvage it by the end.
But today, I will make it better. I don't care what that takes. If that means have to spend $2 on a treat from the vending machine, I'll do it. If that means I put aside a callback until tomorrow, fine. But if I have another day like yesterday and the day before, I'm probably going to end up doing or saying something that I'll regret.
Yes, it's been that bad.
I'm not happy about having to leave early (I enjoy days where I get to lie on the couch for an hour or two and read), but I'm heading out east to Gamestop, to download a Keldeo for Pokemon Black and White. It's one of the last days of the giveaway, and I've been putting it off for weeks, and I don't want this chance to pass me by. I have a copy of each game, so I'll be downloading one for each. No reason why not to, after all.
Maybe while I'm out there, I'll get myself a pumpkin spice muffin from Tim Horton's. They only sell them during October, and they're really tasty. They have a dollop of cream in the centre, and have sugared pumpkin seeds all throughout them, and I could just eat them for days.
I really ought to learn how to make my own. They wouldn't be the same, but I bet I could still make tasty ones. And I could make them year round, if I really wanted.
And at least I'll be able to read during the long bus ride, too. I have to read more of Michael Sullivan's Theft of Swords. it's such a long book that reading through it feels annoyingly slow, like I'm not making much progress. An hour of bus time will help with that, I don't doubt.
And then after I get off work tonight, I only have one day left, and then I can have some blissful days off. One of those days will be spent at a friend's family's house for Thanksgiving dinner, which might make me fret about how little time I have, but I'm going to try to squash that down for the sake of anxiety recovery. I need to get used to being around people. It's not like they're going away any time soon.
(Still wish I could just hole myself up inside my apartment and read or embroider all day, though.)
At least I got an hour off the phone yesterday toward the end of my shift, to do some location research. Having that break made things so much easier. It gave me an hour to step back, to just read and listen to audio presentations, and just generally relax so that the last half hour on the phones was much easier to handle than the first four.
And as much as it looked like my handle time was going to be shot again, I managed to salvage it by the end.
But today, I will make it better. I don't care what that takes. If that means have to spend $2 on a treat from the vending machine, I'll do it. If that means I put aside a callback until tomorrow, fine. But if I have another day like yesterday and the day before, I'm probably going to end up doing or saying something that I'll regret.
Yes, it's been that bad.
I'm not happy about having to leave early (I enjoy days where I get to lie on the couch for an hour or two and read), but I'm heading out east to Gamestop, to download a Keldeo for Pokemon Black and White. It's one of the last days of the giveaway, and I've been putting it off for weeks, and I don't want this chance to pass me by. I have a copy of each game, so I'll be downloading one for each. No reason why not to, after all.
Maybe while I'm out there, I'll get myself a pumpkin spice muffin from Tim Horton's. They only sell them during October, and they're really tasty. They have a dollop of cream in the centre, and have sugared pumpkin seeds all throughout them, and I could just eat them for days.
I really ought to learn how to make my own. They wouldn't be the same, but I bet I could still make tasty ones. And I could make them year round, if I really wanted.
And at least I'll be able to read during the long bus ride, too. I have to read more of Michael Sullivan's Theft of Swords. it's such a long book that reading through it feels annoyingly slow, like I'm not making much progress. An hour of bus time will help with that, I don't doubt.
And then after I get off work tonight, I only have one day left, and then I can have some blissful days off. One of those days will be spent at a friend's family's house for Thanksgiving dinner, which might make me fret about how little time I have, but I'm going to try to squash that down for the sake of anxiety recovery. I need to get used to being around people. It's not like they're going away any time soon.
(Still wish I could just hole myself up inside my apartment and read or embroider all day, though.)