lighterthanair: (Persona-phone)
Still jobless. This isn't a surprise; it's only been a week, and even if I'd been lucky enough to get an interview anywhere last week, the turnaround time for jobs, in my experience, is 2-3 weeks from the time of application, if you get anywhere at all.

So I still have plenty of time on my hands at the moment.

I've been cooking more, which is good for me, since it gives me something to do that makes me feel accomplished, and lets me try out potentially tasty new recipes at the same time. I found a recipe for udon made from scratch, actually making the noodles by hand instead of using pre-made ones, and as soon as I can figure out what kind of soup I want to put them in, I'm going to make some for supper, probably later this week. Considering the noodles themselves consist of flour (I have plenty), water (definitely have plenty) and salt (not as much as the others, but still a lot), I can make a lot of tasty meals really cheaply that way. A definite bonus when money is an issue.

And now the window in the kitchen opens, so I can make soup and bread without dying of the heat that having the stove and oven on generates! This makes me very happy, and comes at a good time, since turkeys are currently $1.99 a pound at a nearby grocery store. If I get a $15 turkey, that's a meal or two with roast turkey and vegetables, plenty of leftover meat if I want to make sausage or stuffed turkey buns or any number of things that don't take too much meat, plus the bones and leftover meat also makes a delcious soup. If I buy carrots and potatoes, I can easily stretch $20 of food into a week's worth of meals, using a few others things that I have in to supplement (mostly spices, flour, and water, so I don't tend to count those things in the overall cost of the food I make).

Turkey omelettes are also delicious, and I need to use up the eggs that are in the fridge before they're good for nothing but hard-boiling.

Making slow but good progress in Persona 3 Portable. I abandonned Hard Mode because it was frustrating me too much and the repeated dying I was doing prevented me from doing any decent level-grinding or plot advancement. They're not kidding when they call it Hard Mode! I'll give it another try eventually, but I want to play through more of the game without tearing my hair out. Right now I'm just past the part where Fuuka joins SEES, so now I've got Mitsuru to train in Tartarus, while I try to get enough money together to get everyone's equipment up to snuff. There's not much left that I need to buy, but I like having everyone in top condition as soon as I can.

More specifically, I like being in better-than-top condition; I always overlevel in games if I have the chance, because I'm one of those people who enjoys level-grinding. Always been a little bit weird that way.

Celebrated my birthday on Saturday, which didn't go over as planned but it was still fun. The ice cream cupcakes I was going to buy didn't work out since the store's freezer was broken so they just didn't have any. Then the debit machine was wonky at the second store I went to when I decided, "Fuck it, I still want ice cream, so I'm getting some pumpkin cheesecake frozen yogurt from Yeh!" But I still had a great day, ate a delicious meal at Boaz (and got hooked on edamame), spent time with friends, had delicious strawberry-custard layer cake, bought some tea bags that are specifically designed to make ice tea (the tropical sangria one is delicious, and I haven't yet tried the strawberry basil) and overall had a good time turning 30. There are worse ways to spend a birthday, that's for sure!

Today, though, I'll be spending most of the day off line, since there's a high possibility of thundershowers this afternoon and I don't like using my computer then. A holdover from the desktop days, I suspect, since I can just unplug my laptop from the wall and still have it function perfectly and not worry about the power going out or power surges or anything of the sort. It's just habit.

And since the next 2 weeks are largely free of responsibility (at least work-related responsibility), I've challenged myself to a readathon! I'm planning to read 6 books, finish a 7th that's been half finished for over a month now, and catch up on last month's and this month's Apex magazine. I'm about a third of the way through Julia Mary Gibson's Copper Magic right now, and enjoying it a hell of a lot! It's a quick read, not because it's so short (though it's under 400 pages, so 'short' is relative anyway), but because it's just so engaging. I can't help but keep pushing onward because I'm loving the story and the tone so much. Another one of those cases where I'm surprised that this is the author's debut novel; Gibson is definitely an author to keep an eye on, I'm thinking.

But now I shall vanish into the depths of my To Read pile and enjoy what's left of the merely semi-clouded sky before the rain really starts to roll in.
~ Managed to spill Ribena on about 2 dozen embroidered bookmarks last night. Quick action and a soak in some near-boiling water with Woolite did the trick, though, and in spite of the Ribena being spilled on white cloth, no stains remain. This makes me beyond happy, since it's not like those bookmarks took no time or effort to make. 2 dozen of them would amount to about a week's worth of evenings, doing nothing but embroidering from supper until bedtime, and I'm glad I didn't lose all that work.
~ ~ Though in a pinch, I was prepared to stain them all with Ribena if I couldn't lift the stain, just to make the cloth uniform in colour. I had a backup plan, but I'm glad I didn't have to use it.

~ Washed my giant comforter today, did some dishes, and cleaned off a messy counter in the kitchen. Hurrah for productivity.

~ Am about to start making supper. Baked pork chops, with a sauce made from cola, brown sugar, and ketchup, and rice on the side. Easy as anything to make, and tasty. Good for days when I want a good meal but don't want to or can't put a lot of work into it.

~ Got some good reading time in today, too. Though I should be reading the last bits of Rachel Neumeier's Black Dog, I decided to take a break and reread Janet McNoughton's The Secret Under my Skin, since I saw it on my bookshelf and realized it had been a while since I'd last read it. It's a quick book, and I'm about 30 pages from the end, and I've really only been reading it between other chores. So, not too bad.

~ Actually managed to fit some singing in today, too, which made me wince because I'm sorely out of practice again and my range has decreased. Again. One of the few benefits to being off work for so long last time was being able to spend so much time alone so that I could sing without worry of anyone hearing me, but since I went back to work, I haven't had much time for that. I'm disappointed in myself, really, because singing's good for me. Good for my lungs, good for my mood.
~ ~ And when stuff was too challenging for me to sing along to, well, it's not like I was complaining at listening to Adam Lambert's amazing voice without my own getting in the way!

~ Watched a couple of episodes of Chiritotechin, too. It's nice that the episodes are only 15 minutes long, so I can squeeze one in while I'm waiting for dishes to dry, or between loads of laundry. It's a surprisingly entertaining show, and I'm enjoying it so far.
10 days to go until the surgery. If you're wondering whether or not I'm nervous... I so totally am. Not about the surgery itself (because even if that goes wrong, then all that happens is she removes my uterus entirely instead of just the tumour, and that's no bad thing because then the tumour can't grow back), but about the recovery. First I was told 4 weeks. Then 6 weeks. Then 6-8 weeks. Nobody's given me any sort of time frame in which I can expect to be doing or not doing certain things (am I going to end up pretty much in bed for a week? Am I going to be okay to take short walks after a few weeks? Am I going to feel mostly like ass for a month?), so what worries me the most is that I don't know what to expect when. And since I have a bad habit of feeling fine one day and so pushing myself too hard, I really don't want to do that when I have an incision in my belly. Nor do I want to take it too easy when moving around a little more would be better for me.

Still, not much I can do about that in the meantime, and I'll be sure to get more info from them before I leave the hospital anyway.

I've been taking the time to enjoy as much outdoorsy time as I can, now that the weather's nice. I've gone for walks almost every day, even if they're just short ones, and while my feet aren't thanking me much, I feel better having spent some time under the sun. It's nice even just to walk 5 minutes to the little park next to the old museum!

I'm of two minds whether to engage in a bit of a cooking spree next week. I fancy some fresh bread, and I know I have all the ingredients in to make it, but the trouble is that I don't know if I want to go through the hassle of baking it from scratch. Even if most of that hassle is just me sitting around and playing the waiting game while the dough rises and bakes and stuff. But mmm, the smell of bread baking is so tempting!

Also there's a cornmeal-rolled pork roast sitting in the freezer that's been begging me to cook it for a while. That, fortunately, can probably just go in the slow cooker and I won't have to do another thing to it until it's ready to be eaten, so that's no chore at all to prepare. That'll probably be done up next week, even if I don't bake bread.

Also kind of feeling the urge to do some sewing again lately. Might save that for the days following surgery in which I really don't want to get out of bed. I can just sit there and sew to my heart's content, and come away from it feeling like I at least did something productive that day. Maybe I'll come out of it with some stuff I can try to sell. My Etsy store's been closed for months, and I kind of feel bad that I've gotten so caught up in reading again that I haven't had any time for sewing. Even when I haven't been at work and have had the extra time!

Maybe I should stop level-grinding in Pokemon while I'm watching Fringe and instead try to sew or something while the episodes are on. Might work out a bit better, at least while I'm still getting the urge to do crafty stuff again.
First off, I'd like to thank the awesome anonymous person who paid for another month of paid time here on DW. I suspect I know who did it, but I think they want to remain anonymous, and I'll respect that. But thank you, never the less! :-D

Back on the cyklo to stop myself from bleeding so heavily. Honestly, my body got about a week where it wasn't bleeding. Maybe a week and a half. Is it even possible to bleed so heavily after such a short period of time?

I suppose my question's being answered as we speak...

Dr. S told me to call her if I started to bleed very heavily again, and she'd rush the surgery date, but in all honesty, I can't do that. For one thing, I don't even have the initial surgery date yet, something which she told me I ought to have the same day I last saw her. It's been a week; no call from her office about when I'm supposed to come back. Secondly, I can't afford it. I have to pay for that $400 piece of equipment they'll be putting in me, and I have to show up at the surgery with it in hand, so it's not like they can just bill me later or something. I haven't been back to work yet (I go back on Friday), and I definitely haven't received any money in weeks, so if she rushes the date, I won't be able to afford it all.

All I can do at the moment is wait. I have plenty of cyklo from when that doctor at the hospital called the prescription to the pharmacy for me, so I shouldn't be too bad off, and I'll continue taking iron pills so that my hemoglobin doesn't dip too low again.

Which reminds me, I need to make an appointment for blood tests soon, too. :/ I hope I can do that on a day when I don't have to go to work. I know it'll only be 2 vials they'll take from me, but given how my energy level has been due to blood problems, I don't want to be anything less than my best when I go for my shift. I already know I'm going to be slow when I go back, and I know they're not going to like that. :/

In happier news, I finished Rachel Hartman's Seraphina (interesting YA fantasy novels, and I can see why it was nominated for awards), and started in on Mercedes Lackey's Redoubt. Once I finish this book, I'll have read all the Valdemar novels. Every last one. I feel pretty proud of that, actually, given how many there are!

I also watched all of the Persona 4 anime in a couple of days, and have made a good start on Persona: Trinity Soul. I can see why Trinity Soul isn't considered canon. It's a good story, but it seems to me like someone came up with the idea, and then a bunch of other people said, "Know what's popular? That Persona thing. Let's slap that name on it so that more people watch it." I keep expecting people's Personas to look like mythological figures. To act like Personas have in games. To be explained as things that give you strength to get through life and all its challenges. So far the best explanation for them is that they're guardian spirits, and they look more like spiritual mechs than anything else.

So yeah, can definitely see why it's not considered canon to the series.

Turkey for supper tonight. Utility turkeys were on sale really cheap at a nearby grocery store, for only a little over $1 per pound. The cheapest one there was just over 5 kg and cost a little over $15, which will end up making a lot of meals! Roast turkey with vegetables, leftover turkey sandwiches, turkey soup or stew. I'm getting hungry just thinking about it!
It's going to be one of those days. I don't mean to sound so pessimistic, but it's just got that feeling. I'm so tired right now that I could cry. My body feels heavy and sluggish and slow, and I can't seem to pull myself together. I slept longer than normal last night, and so now instead of waking up and feeling fine for an hour and then getting so tired I can barely stand, I just woke up that way.

And I have to get through three more days of work like this. I'd call in sick and just spend the rest of the day in bed, but my attendance already sucks and they're watching me like a hawk because of it, and I can't really afford it anyway. They might give me a bit of a pass because of the tumour thing, but that still doesn't make up for the pay that I wouldn't be getting. I just have to go in there and tough it out and hope that it gets better later.

I was actually looking forward to today last week. It was supposed to be an all-day training session at work, but due to the storm and the expected call volume, head office cancelled the training. I thought I might have been able to rest a little more while still being at work, but nope, no such luck.

I don't know if the iron supplements aren't working to combat the fatgieua and anemia, or if they are and I'd be feeling worse still if I wasn't taking them.

On a happier note, I actually cooked a full meal and dessert yesterday, for Samhain. Pan-fried pork medallions and apples, turnip and potatoes cooked together, and carrots. Followed by a pumpkin/cream cheese roll cake for dessert. Things didn't go perfectly in the kitchen, and I made a couple of mistakes, and by the end my feet and back hurt so badly that I could hardly walk properly, but it was fun anyway, and I at least learned from my mistakes. And the food was better than just merely edible.

This Sunday, I'm planning on a roast chicken and vegetables for supper. Probably with stuffing, too, because I like it so much. At least roasts don't require so much active work. Pop 'em in the oven and let them go. Easier to do even if I am really tired that day.

But now it's time for me to get offline and go to work. Leaving a bit early today, so I have time to pick up a drink in between busses. That leaves me with a spare half an hour uptown, but it still beats missing a bus or not having a drink to get me through my shift, so I'll take it. I can read a bit while I'm waiting, after all.

And if I can keep my eyes open when I get home, it'll be time to work on the first part of this year's NaNovel. It'll be nice to get some hardcore writing done again. I finished last year's NaNovel in under 2 weeks, and I know I won't be able to handle that pace this year, but I'm still going to do my best to reach the goal.
lighterthanair: Reiji and Naoya, from Love Mode, kissing (Love Mode)
I don't know why, but today I'm feeling optimistic about many things. Like I want to actually go and get things done. I want to go out sit at The Infusion with a nice cup of tea and a good book. I want to sit down and design patterns for little plushies. I want to work on a Buffalaxed music video. I want to work on the scripting for a movie review. I want to write up some articles for HubPages, since I recently got back into doing that. And I want to do all of this without feeling terribly overwhelmed by the idea of having so many projects and so little time to do them in.

Maybe it's because I know that it's a work day and I don't actually have the ability to do any of these right now. But even so, usually that leaves me feeling bitter and resentful that I can't devote more time to my more enjoyable hobbies.

Maybe I'm changing for the better?

I finished Mercedes Lackey's Owlsight yesterday (a reread for the umpteenth time, but necessary for the Great Valdemar Reread that I'm doing on Bibliotropic), and I'm about halfway through Cassandra Rose Clarke's The Assassin's Curse, which is a much better piece of YA fiction than I expected it to be. I've gotten kind of burned out on YA lately, been disappointed by too many books that fizzle instead of shine, that sound good but are more focused on OMG TEEN ROMANCE than actual plot development. Which kind of sucks right now, since there are actually a bunch of YA novels coming out soon that I've committed to reading, and that I know will be good, but I can't quite bring myself to want to read them that much.

But taking a chance on this one has so far been worth it. Maybe it'll rekindle my interest enough to make me pick up Mike Mullin's Ashen Winter afterward. That's one I'm fairly sure I'll enjoy, if it's as good as the first book he wrote.

But interspersing the YA with some of my beloved Lackey works is a good way of getting over the slump, I think.

And then I have to get back to reading Michael Sullivan's Theft of Swords. I'm not too concerned with finishing that one quickly, mind, since it's a monster of a book, but I don't want to leave it alone too long or else I might fall into that old habit of not actually returning to it.

Pay day tomorrow! Not that I'm expecting much (a week of being sick will do that to a person), but it'll be enough to pay the bills and maybe pick up a few groceries. I think I might splurge on some perogies, since I haven't had them in a while. I think there's still some ham and cheese in the fridge, too, so I might be daring on Sunday and make some ham-and-cheese rolls. Not the healthiest, but still delicious, and certainly far better than me grabbing a muffin or a granola bar for a snack!

Must remember to call my doctor's office on Monday to see if they got my ultrasound results yet. That anxiety is still low in the back of my mind, and I don't think I'll be able to rest easy until I know the results and what's going to be done about them. Not knowing is the hardest part right now. I know that there's almost no chance it's cancer (there's about a 0.001% chance it is, and I'm not putting money on those odds), but there are still a few other options, each of which has a few different treatments, and I want to start on the correct one and get these problems fixed. I'm tired of dreading my period. I'm tired of having to run to the bathroom every half an hour for 3 days. I'm tired of not knowing whether I'm going to have a sleepless night as I have to get up every couple of hours to avoid bleeding on the sheets. I'm tired of not knowing whether I'll be bleeding for 6 days or 2 weeks or another bout of bleeding for 6 weeks.

Those results can't come in fast enough, I tell you.

And I know that whatever it is, I can handle it. I just need to know what it is that I'm going to have to handle, and how I'll be handling it. I can't do anything but wait at the moment, and that's frustrating. But when I find out, I'm confident that even if it's difficult, it won't be something that I can't overcome, or at least lessen to the point where I can improve my quality of life.
lighterthanair: (video games)
Why yes, I am up ridiculously early on a Sunday morning. Even excusing the fact that I've been making an effort to get up earlier these days, I'm definitely up earlier than I want to be. This is due partly to the fact that my cats seemed to want to spend their night visciously attacking the new bedsheets, but mostly because my lungs are extra twitchy today. They've been getting worse over the past week, but it's been a while since I've actually woken up in the middle of the night feeling congested and wheezy.

I don't like it.

Maybe it's because of the fact that the weather's getting colder. Maybe some of the stress I've been under with work and my mother leaving and the worry over Tuesday's ultrasound and a hundred and one other niggling little things. Maybe a combination of everything. But I just plain don't like it.

So I'm going to have to start being really careful with my health if this is the way the winter will go. I can't afford to get sick, especially in my lungs. Lung infections always take their toll in horrible ways.

So I was considering going out to the large weekly flea market that's held on the other side of the city today, but in light of a bad night of sleep plus lung problems, I think I'll give that a miss. I really shouldn't have gone anyway, because a lot of crafters have tables there, and as much as I love supporting local artists, I really don't have the money to do so right now. And I would have found the money to do so, even if it meant getting a smaller order of groceries. Which doesn't always work, and has sometimes left me mealless.

So yes, financial wisdom plus health wisdom equal me not going out much today. I'll take a day to recover, to relax, maybe make some headway on other projects. I keep getting distracted away from books I should be reading by books that I don't actually have committments to read. Bad book reviewer, bad! (Or, more accurately, "Damn you, A J Jacobs, for writing another hilarious memoir!")

Maybe I'll do some cooking today. I made a really delicious quiche the other night. Hame, cheese, and spinach. It was my first time making quiche, and it turned out pretty well. I think I'll avoid store-bought pie-shells next time, though, and just experiment with making my own. If I can learn to make a nice light flaky crust, then that would go perfectly with the quiche.

But since I already made the quiche, I'm not sure what I'll make today...

I want to make a batch of baked beans this week, so I'll put the beans on to soak tonight and do the cooking tomorrow before my therapy session. I might also get really daring and try for a loaf of bread. It's been years since I last made any, but I remember that I did find it to be a lot of fun. Punching the dough down, kneading it. And the way it makes the place smell, too! Very therapeutic!

Maybe I'll make the bread today, if I feel up to it. Really, if I bake two loaves of bread a week, that will probably get me through the rest of the week without needing to purchase any from the grocery store. Which will save me money in the long run. Flour's cheap from the bulk store, yeast lasts for quite a while, and the only really expensive parts would be if I decide to make any specialty breads, like that buttermilk garlic bread I made years ago. Delicious stuff (a couple of friends and I ate the two long loaves almost before they had finished cooling completely, because it was so tasty), but since it involves extra ingredients like butermilk, I don't think I'll be making it very often.

Might be a nice Samhain or Yule treat, though. Both of those days I have booked off work, so if I want to make special bread for the evening, there's nothing to stop me! (Assuming I could afford the ingredients, of course.)

But enough babbling about food. I think it's time I went and built my Druid back up in Diablo II. I miss my old wolfbrother Druid. So awesome. But the only question is what to name him... I wish I could remember what my old Druid had been named. That would solve the problem easily! Ah well, I'm sure I'll find something. And the hordes of darkness shall tremble!

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